Midnight In Paris
Come to my inner circle
I’ll invite you in
The door is cracked
But just for you
I’ve waited to begin
Church
The porch light’s on…craving vision
Buy this church for a new religion
It’s your’s and mine, a space for two
Whatever we dream…just me and you
Through your eyes, reflected in mine
This place will be Wednesday divine
Rebuild, replace, old dust with new
Never done, before we are through
For each days work, is without chore
You with me, I want nothing more
Boys With Trucks
Your ‘68 Chevy C-10 sails down the dirt road…carving it’s way through the green waves of wheat. Your old truck cuts through the grassy sea with ease, dust billowing behind us. The bench seat two thirds full as I mark the center…my long legs on either side of the long stick shift, where your hand rests on top, ready to down shift at the next winding curve. I feel the warmth of your body, my left arm around your shoulder…where my fingers lightly play through your soft, thick hair. Heavy wind swirls around us, singing with the crackling radio’s slide guitar and old time banjo. I glance sideways at your eyes, hidden by dark aviators…wondering what’s on your mind. Three weeks seem like three months…in this short amount of time, with the infinite future before us, everything is perfect and unknown, without history. I rest my head lightly on your shoulder as you guide the heavy truck around a right curve on the old country road…the back tires slightly giving way to the loose dirt and gravel. You take your hand off the gear shift and move it to my leg sending sparks through my body…testing my willpower, making it hard to not take your face in my hands and feel your soft, strong lips against mine. I sigh. You say something in a low muffled voice, but I’m lost in a thought, so it floats by, drowned by the music, wind, and thick, sweet summer air…escaping out the window. I see the desert unfold before us around the next bend. You slow to a stop…and ask if I have to pee. I reply, “Yup!”
Road trippin’ with you…and it’s only chapter one. This might be my favorite book yet.
Live & Love
I think taking risks in life is necessary. If we aren’t willing to let go of our fears and worries of what might happen, well… nothing will happen. Life and love could pass us by. There may not be a second chance.
I want to take risks. I want to be around others who are willing to do the same, for there is comfort in knowing we are in it together, for the ups and the downs… and have a common destination, where ever it may be.
Life is ever changing, but we can make a choice to trust in ourselves and each other, let go, and let life happen. It may be beautiful, or not…or you may never know.
Dear Self,
You have the ability to positively or negatively affect every moment and situation. To strive for the former is possible only by being mindful of what you project, action and speech. Everything being connected in a constant loop of interaction and reaction, doing this will most likely result in positivity for all involved. This takes breaking old habits of responding or acting on impulse. It will take pausing to think of how things will be perceived before releasing your thoughts into the world. Intent is less than perception. Perception creates reality, intent does not. I am encouraging you, Self, to see what outcome you would like, and help create that as much as possible. If you want to work to rebuild friendships that have been damaged, you need to be mindful and patient of these things. Every day. You can create opportunities for this. You can actually contribute to other’s happiness by doing these things. Patience is needed as these things do not happen overnight, but perseverance is necessary. Remembering to not let past issues, negative assumptions, old habits, or bad thoughts in general (internal OR external) affect you on this path to being a good friend and a positive influence on everyone you love. Your negative mind and emotions do not control you. The life you want and the relationships you treasure should drive you. Keep this in mind. Do not wait until tomorrow to do any of these things. Practice every second of the day. Like an exercise, your mind may not do these things easily at first, but with constant practice, it will became easier everyday. This may be the best thing you’ve learned over the past few years. This in itself is invaluable and you should have zero regrets about anything that recently lead you here. However, it’s all for nothing if you do not put forth effort. If you can’t let go of your’s and others shortcomings and mistakes, then you have learned nothing, and may live the rest of your life without balance. Read this often. Read it even if you are happy and at peace, read it when you have slipped and need help up. In the end, you are the best person to help yourself. You are always there. Be a person you can rely on. This is the only way.
Metta.
